getting better. [Then when] I once felt well. I could make it up so easily. But this way my teachers do not know I am not well, and they will think I am just [plain] doing [french] work.

Dr. T. came in last night and she said she could not see why anyone with a grain of sense had not given me an external application before. She wanted to do it last night, but I would not have it. I thought if you had wanted it, you would have said so Sunday. This morning she came up and informed me that no doctor would allow a girl with bladder trouble to go out on a day like this. I have been doing it for three months now. [Ah] Mother. I am just wasting time this week staying up here. I wish I were in the doctor's office waiting now. Every day of this makes me just that much more nervous, and I am certainly stupid in my classes. At [present] I take [turns] about twitching from my toes to my face. She came in this morning and told me [either] I would grow up an hysterical woman or a sensible woman, and now was the very time to make the choice. She said I wasn't using any self-control and that is what I have been doing for the last three months. As far as I can make out I didn't give out till yesterday.

I signed up to have my trunk brought down, and