Vassar College.
Ponghkeepsie, N.Y., April 10-th, 1868
Mr. Cyrus Swan
Dear Sir. I have your duplicate letter sheets dated the
4**1 current, and at my first reading I thought to consign them were
they in some respects properly belonged to the flames, but on the
other hand in reading them over the second time I discovered here
and there a kernal of wheat so submitting them to a winnowing pro-
cess xxxxx^cxxxx I separated the "chaff" to find the substance, and
it
now allow me first to examine xxxxxxxxxx for I soberly think that
your mental vision has blunted your understanding & Judgement and
withered your sober Facultys, for you insist that there been "apparent
coolness of attitude in me toward you for some time past" that you
have "observed changes in my manner" he and you "want to know
why all this"--
1 have only to repeat what I said in my last letter, that this
seeming coolness on my part lies at the door of your own distorted
kind of despondency often renders
vision, & may I not also say, that this xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
our judgment incorrect
have I not seen you & your family pass my door for months without call-
up yet
ing or even looking at my house, but you add, I dont pay my respects by
you or
calling on your family (as usual) true, nor have I called on any relative
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during the same period, for the best of reasons, it is with difficulty
I can get in or get out of Carrage & walking is out of the Question
and if you had call** and seen me during the last 5/o 6 weeks confine-
ment to my house either my Doctor or myself would have explained
the cause, I am sorry that a mans physical infirmities should inure
to his own-w%ii wrong doing, &c.
Now with regard to our business connexion, allow me to state,
that it is the first time in my life that I ever knew a mans contemplated
failure of a
voluntairey charity to a friend could he made available to his own con-
demnation & dishonor, even if it were not fHl4fil4d,~ or peril his char-
acter to "honorable obligation11 as a "breach of faith" What do you
mean MfS. by saying that "promises upon the stren strength of which
you had rendered me me "services" of a Nature you had never consented
to render to another of which money in hand would be no adequate equi-
valent" fkc This is extraordinary language and I do not understand
your meaning, Will you please to name these "services,"- In looking
over the several discharges by voucher & other evidences for services
rendered of all kinds xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx & signed by you I find they cover
very
all professional as well as private dealings between us, up to ablate
& professional
period, amounting to several thousand dollars, since that time your, ser-
a
vices has been with other parties & not me, and then show large Bill for
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services &c " You say "you have given me the best thought & hardest
labors of your life11 relying with confidence amounting to certainty
T,that you had provided & was in that in that way repaying me &c", but
Mr Swan you have omited to state the many favors I had bestowed on
you pecuniarily during your voyage & visit with me to Euprop in 1845
and on subsequent pleasureable excusions &c. What I had reference
to in my last note of "standing by the College" through every immer-
gency was simply this, that the College interest was my first interest,
all other interest of every nature waa subordinate and if any thing
should happen in my pecuniary affairs so that I could not carry out all
with the College
my plans & desires to my relatives & friends, the College would take
the preferencethats all.
Now how far these provisions which I have made can or will be
carried out, must depend on contingencies*
First, the ballance of the available funds xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I may have at the day of my Decease, second the amount of the "free
time
will offerings" of nay family connexions on that day^ thirdly, the needs
of further advances to the College, all these things must be kept in
the
mind wether ray reputation as the Founder "of College" floats down with
me
him side by side or not &c
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