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Elder, Lilla (Thomas). Diary, 1866-1873

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1866-1873
Abstract
Lilla Thomas Elder's diary documents the years 1866-1873; however, the narrative does not develop chronologically on consecutive pages. The volume's content includes Vassar events such as Matthew Vassar's death and how it changed Founder's Day celebrations, as well as routine activities, such as fluctuating relationships with classmates, decorating her room, in-room eating "sprees", trips to the infirmary, and interactions with Dr. Alida Avery, Hannah Lyman, and her teachers. She writes detailed descriptions of time at home in Hastings, N.Y., trips to New York City, and a summer in Shandaken in the Catskills. Vacations involved parlor games, rowing, riding, hiking, picnicking, and flirtations with young men. The diary ends with her thoughts on how her Vassar education developed her character but had a negative effect her romantic relationships with men.,
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Elder, Lilla (Thomas)
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Table of Contents

May 1866 - May 1867 (p 6-36)

Oct 1867 - Sep 1869 (p 49-56)

Nov 1869 - Aug 1870 (p 60-81)

Aug 1870 - June 1871 (p 86-115)

May 1871 - May 1872 (p 155-186)

Oct 1872 (p 44-45)

Oct 1873 (p 46-48); poetry, correspondence, pressed flowers and other items can be found on the unlisted pages.

Subject
Alum Activities
Subject (Topical)
Personal Relationships
Student Life
Traditions
Diaries
Women college students
New York (State)
poughkeepsie
Vassar College. Class of 1873
Vassar College
Vassar College--Students
Women's colleges
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Finding aid: https://digitallibrary.vassar.edu/collections/finding-aids/62cd5d54-e5db-45fb-8d27-0c0437843e88
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Vassar College Student Diaries
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vassar:2796,Box 127
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1 item
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Bound volume; approx 189p; 9.25 x 7.75 inches; Iron gall ink on aged paper
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Vassar College Archives and Special Collections
Coverage
Catskill Mountains (N.Y.)
Description and travel,Shandaken (N.Y. : Town)
History
Sources,Hastings on Hudson (N.Y.)
History
Sources

 

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From May 13, 1866
to
May 13, 1872.
Lilla S. Thomas.
Hastings.
Vassar College.
Poughkeepsie.

 

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Journal
Of
Sarah Lillie Thomas
Hastings on the Hudson
New York.
Saillie Thomas 1866+1867

 

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1866.
May 13
Sunday. A beautiful day.
After breakfast, I prepared for baptism. I went down to the baptismal waters, feeling very happy. After being baptized by Mr. Bates. I returned home, and prepared for dinner. In the afternoon I went to Sunday School, and enjoyed it better than any other Sunday, the lesson was the twelth chapter of Matthew. After Sunday School, I was received as a member of the church and received the hand of fellow-ship and communion. After tea Mary and myself had a nice little talk and we prayed together for an unconverted friend. We wished to go church but it rained and kept us at home. I went to bed at nine o'clock, feeling very happy.
May 14
Monday A windy, but pleasant day
I went to school at eight o'clock, and tried to do right. Coming home. I talked to Emma Codey about religion and she seemed quite affected. In the afternoon I wrote a letter to Mary Mills. Then I went to the [depot] with Mother and Fannie for Papa. In the evening I practised an hour, and then went to bed.
May 15
Tuesday. A pleasant day
I went to school, and came home at two o'clock. Then went out doors to play. Came in to dinner at five o'clock, we had nearly finished when who should come in but Cousin Richard, he stayed all night.
May 16
Wednesday. A most beautiful day.
I went to school and came home at one o'clock to take my music lesson. When I arrived home, I found Jenny Taylor there. In the evening two gentlemen (Mr. Tucker and Mr Schank) came to tell Jenny what time the train

 

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went down in the morning. They concluded to go at ten o'clock.
May 17
Thursday. An unpleasant day
It rained a little and there was a very thick mist. I came home and played until dinner. After wards I practiced an hour. Then at half past six. I went to the wedding of Hannah Gasby and John B [Prote].
May 18
Friday. A rainy day.
I went to school and when I came home I played with Fannie and Adell. After dinner I practiced an hour for Father. Went to bed at half past eight.
May 19
Saturday. A pleasant day.
After breakfast I went out and played in the garden. Mr Loomis came at ten o'clock and I took my lesson first After dinner I went out again. When Mr Bates came to bid us good-bye. Emma Codey came over to play with me a little while, and went home at half past five I went to bed at half past eight. A happy day
May 20
Sunday. A beautiful day.
It was a beautiful day. The sun rose, and send its light into the world. The little birds sang praises unto their Maker. I went to church, and heard a very good sermon from Romans and chap 28 verse. Went to Sunday School and afterwards there was a young man baptized. I went to church in the evening and heard, preached from 2 chap of Revelations 10 verse, a very good sermon. After service the young man who was baptized received the hand of fellowship. The sermon was Mr Bates last one.

 

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May 21
Monday.
I went to school, after I came home. I had my lunch, and then Emma Codey, and Anna Matheson came to see me After dinner I practised, and then went to bed.
May 22
Tuesday. A pleasant day.
I went to school, then I played, and after dinner I practised, then went to bed.
May 23
Wednesday. A lovely day.
I went to school, and came home at one o'clock, and took my music lesson, then I went to see Emma Codey
May 24
Thursday. A pleasant day.
After school I walked with Julia to [Mrs] Wells and stayed there an hour, walked home. Practised in the evening.
Nov 28 Wednesday. My Birthday. A beautiful day.
After school. I had Alie Adams, and Emma Codey come over, and spend the evening, and the night with me at seven o'clock I was led into the parlor, and there found, a beautiful little Evergreen tree, covered with presents. I found on the tree a piece of paper with happy Birthday put on with moss. then there was a Cornucopia from Mother on the top and a doll's shawl from Emma Codey, a box of tooth-powder from Adelle, a cologne bottle from Fannie, a package of Autumn Leaves from Emmie, and our Young Folks for 1865 from Father. Before the tree was my Birthday Cake, which I had made the day before. I cut it, and it was very nice I am thirteen years old. A pleasant day

 

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Jan 1. [167].
1867.
In the morning, I went in Papa's room to see what was in my stocking. I to my surprise found a beautiful little breast pin of frosted gold with a carbuncle in the centre. an order for Our Young Folks for this year. then some candies in a glass box. After breakfast I went to the Church and there chose a book, called Sisters or not Sisters.
Feb 10
Sunday A pleasant day.
It is a lovely day. Most all of the snow is off the ground, because of the rain. As I had a cold, I did not go to church, neither did Mother, as she had a lame leg. Mr. Putnam preached in Psalms 23 chap [1] verse. He is coming next Sunday.
Feb 11 Monday.
I did not go to school, but painted till two o'clock, when Father went out with Dell and Fannie for a ride. I went to Mrs Codey's to see if Emma could come over, and help me with my Latin She came, and left at four o'clock. then I practised an hour. Went to bed early.
Feb 12.
Tuesday. A pleasant day.
I went to school, and came home at half past three then took my music lesson, then walked down to the depot with Miss Loomis, and rode home in the carriage. Went to bed at half past eight.
Feb 13. Wednesday. A pleasant day.
Went to school, and came home quite early. As I was walking down the lane near our house. I saw something white on the ground. I went to it and found a beauti-

 

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-ful white pigeon very recently killed, and a hawk flying over it. I took it and cut off the wings, tail, and some of the feathers and put them in a box. I then went in the woods and found some very pretty mosses. Went in and practised till dinner. Then went to bed at half past eight.
Feb 14.
Thursday A pleasant day.
Walked to school and walked home, then went to see Emma Codey. It rained hard about church time, so that I could not go to church. Emma broke a lamp and the oil took fire, we were very much frightened. He received a valintine [sic]
Feb 15.
Friday It was very unpleasant
Rode to school and did not get home till quite late, then practised an hour, then wrote off nearly all of my Latin. After dinner I wrote the rest of it and played Authors.
Feb 16.
Saturday. A pleasant day.
I went to the depot and as we were coming home, I stopped at Mr. Post's for my Latin Grammar. I also stopped at Mrs Codey's and asked Emma to come over at ten. She came, and stayed all day. She in the evening we made a selection of some valintines which Father had brought from the city, we sealed and directed three. Emma went home at eight.
Feb 17.
Sunday. An unpleasant day.
I walked to church with Emma Codey, heard a very good sermon from Mr Putnam. I walked home, and had dinner, then went to Sunday School. I staid home with mother in the evening.
A pleasant day.

 

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Feb 18.
Monday
Rode to school, and stopped when half way down so as to walk with Emma Codey. I finished my lessons quite early, and did all my Latin for the next day. At recess the boys did not come in till ten minutes after the time, although Mr Post rang the bell, so they were kept after school. I went to the post-office after school and posted two Valintines. I had four books to carry, which were quite heavy Virgil, Translation, Grammer, and Dictionary. After getting home, I practiced. In the evening I wrote my journal, and went to bed at nine.
Feb 19.
Tuesday. A beautiful day.
Walked to school, and walked home. Emma Codey came to see me, and went home when I went to the depot with Fannie for Father and Dell. We [waited] nearly an hour. In the evening I wanted to go to Prayer Meeting, but Mother said I had better not.
Feb 20.
Wednesday. A very pleasant day.
When I awoke, I found it snowing. I rode to school and rode back at two o'clock, then I practiced, and after dinner I read. Went to bed at nine.
Feb 21.
Thursday An unpleasant day.
It was not snowing when I awoke in the morning but about twelve it commenced snowing very hard, and continued all day. I came from school and found Miss Loomis waiting for me. After dinner I wrote my composition, and went to bed about nine.
An unpleasant day.

 

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Feb 22.
Friday.
The snow was over two feet when I awoke, and I could hardly get to school, even in the sleigh. Mr Post told the scholars at recess that if they wished to go home, they might, and if they wished to stay they could. Not one of the scholars remained and the sleigh came for me very soon. I expected Effie Mills to come and see me in the afternoon, but she did not come and I was all alone, because Father, Mother, Dell and Fannie went sleighriding.
Feb 23
Saturday. An unpleasant day.
I went to the depot and on my way back stopped at Effie's to ask her if she would come and see me in the afternoon, she said she could. I also asked Emma Codey. At two o'clock they came and stayed till five. Dr Devan came in the eveing.
Feb 24
Sunday. A stormy day.
I had a bad head-ache and did not go to church, but wrote a letter to Kattie Thomas, who was converted a short time ago. Went to [S.S.] in the afternoon, came home and read. Went to bed at half past eight.
Feb 25.
Monday. A pleasant day.
Went to school, and Effie Mills walked home with me to see if I could go to a panorama in Dobbs Ferry that evening. Mother said I might so I went to see if Emma Codey could go and her Mother said she might, so at seven we set off with a slight full. We came home nine, after gaving a very pleasant time.
An unpleasant day.

 

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Feb 26.
Tuesday.
I went to school, came home, practised a little and went to bed at half past eight.
Wednesday. A disagreeable day.
Feb 27.
Rode to school, and came home with Emma today, she came to see me in the afternoon with the purpose of getting out our Virgil, we did not get much of it out, as we were playing all the time. she stayed to tea and went home at seven
Feb 28.
Thursday. A pleasant day.
Effie Mills walked home with me in the afternoon, I practiced, and then went to the depot. After dinner I did all my Algebra and went to bed at nine
Feb 20
Friday. A pleasant day
Mar 1.
Went to school and when I came home I found Miss Loomis waiting for me. Having finished I played. In the evening I read some books.
Mar 2.
Saturday. An unpleasant day.
I got up at half past seven. After breakfast I made my bed, and then read till two o'clock, then dressed and practised half an hour on the piano.
Mar 3
Sunday.
Mr [Melloly] preached an excellent sermon. I went to S.S. in the afternoon, and tonight a class of little boys came home and read.
Mar 4
Monday. A beautiful day.
Rode to school, and rode home. Emma Codey came to see me and we wrote off our Virgil. In evening I went to church. An unpleasant day.

 

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Mar 5
Tuesday.
Rode to school with Emmie, and Julia, who were going to the city on a visit. I walked home and took my music lesson. I had a very bad head-ache, but nevertheless I went to see Emma Codey, and wrote off my Virgil.
Mar 6
Wednesday. A beautiful day.
Emma Codey came to see me in the afternoon. We wrote our Compositions, and then cut out some patches for a quilt. It was Sarah Codey's birthday. Adell and Fannie went to see her. Emma stayed till seven
Mar 7
Thursday. A rainy day.
Emma and I waited for the carriage after school, and while doing so, we wrote off our Virgil and Parsing. We had to walk home after all. Sarah Codey came to see Adelle and Fannie. I wrote off my Composition, which I had translated from the Latin, the day before. [Mother] said it was very neat. I retired at nine.
Mar 8.
Friday. A rainy day.
In the afternoon, as Emma and I were walking from school, we met Anna [Hattison] coming down the road. We both went to see her, and stayed there till four o'clock. I spent the rest of the afternoon at Emma's. I retired at nine.
Mar 8
Saturday. A pleasant day.
Emma Codey came to see me and we crimped our hair, then we played with Dell and Fannie. Emma's Mother told her to come home at two o'clock, she said she would stay till five. When five o'clock came Father asked her to stay

 

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to tea, she did and when she went home (as I afterwards learned) her father said she could not come again till week after next.
Mar 10
Sunday. An unpleasant day.
Mr. Jacobs preached in the morning and I was there. I went to S.S. in ther afternoon and there tonight a class of little girls. At three o'clock we had communion. We arrived home at five o'clock. In the evening I read my Library Book. Retired at eight.
Mar 11
Monday. An unpleasant day.
Went to school, when I came home I found Miss McCombs waiting to try a dress on me. Then translated a little of my Virgil, and then read. At depot time Emma and Julia came. After dinner I played [Authors].
Mar 12.
Tuesday. A very foggy day.
Went to school, came home at two o'clock I then went to get out my Virgil. I did not get much out then, but in the evening I finished it.
Mar 13
Wednesday. An unpleasant day.
I went to school came home at two o'clock. then finished my Virgil, and read to Fannie Went to dinner, and in the evening read a book Papa was not home that night.
Mar 14.
Thursday.
I went to school, and came home at two o'clock. I brought my books home, but did not study. I hung some pictures in my room, and went to meeting in evening. A pleasant day.

 

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Mar 15
Friday.
I walked to school, and about eleven o'clock Mr Hoppock and another gentleman came in. Mr Post drilled the classes in Arithmetic. I came home at one o'clock and found Miss Loomis waiting, she gave a pen and holder, it was not very nice, because it would not write well. In the evening I read a book and went to bed at nine.
Mar 16
Saturday. A pleasant day. Fannie and Dell went to the depot with Papa I made [text obscured by object] and fixed my room. I then read my Young [text obscured by object] which I had received Thursday. I went out [text obscured by object] a little while, but soon came in. After [text obscured by object] I hemmed some towels while Emma read [text obscured by object] to me, she was sick in bed. In the [text obscured by object] I dressed and read, after I was tired of [text obscured by object] I practiced. Then Mr Peabody and [Father] [came] in from the City. After dinner I read [text obscured by object] went to bed at eight.
Mar [text obscured by object]
An unpleasant day.
[text obscured by object] [Snow], Snow. All I could see on bush and tree [this] morning when I awoke was Snow, Snow [text obscured by object] snowed all the morning, but never the less, [text obscured by object] [and] mother, Father, Julie, Fannie and I went to church. In the afternoon I went to S.S. and there were more children there than we had expected to see. In the evening I went to church. It did snow then. I retired at ten.
An unpleasant day.

 

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Mar 15
Friday.
I walked to school, and about eleven o'clock Mr Hoppock and another gentleman came in. Mr Post drilled the classes in Arithmetic. I came home at one o'clock and found Miss Loomis waiting, she gave a pen and holder, it was not very nice, because it would not write well. In the evening I read a book and went to bed at nine.
Mar 16
Saturday. A pleasant day. Fannie and Dell went to the depot with Papa I made my bed and fixed my room. I then read my Young Folks, which I had received Thursday. I went out doors a little while, but soon came in. After lunch I hemmed some towels while Emma read a story to me, she was sick in bed. In the afternoon I dressed and read, after I was tired of reading I practiced. Then Mr Peabody and Father came in from the City. After dinner I read and went to bed at eight.
Mar 17.
Sunday. An unpleasant day.
Snow, Snow, Snow. All I could see on bush and tree Sunday morning when I awoke was Snow, Snow, Snow. snowed all the morning, but never the less, Grandmother, Father, Julie, Fannie and I went to church. In the afternoon I went to S.S. and there were more children there than we had expected to see. In the evening I went to church. It did snow then. I retired at ten.
An unpleasant day.

 

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Mar 18.
Monday.
Rode to the depot, then to school. Rode home at two o'clock, after getting out half of my Virgil. After getting home. I ate my lunch, and then translated the rest of my Virgil. Then Father and Mr Peabody came home, and after dinner the question came up who were to go sleigh riding that night. At last it was decided that [Celia], Emma, Miss McCombs, Mr Peabody and I were to go. We started at half past seven for Mr [Beek's] at Yonkers and returned at ten.
Mar 19.
Tuesday. A beautiful day.
Rode to school, and rode home. Miss Loomis was waiting for me and I only took half of an hour because the piano was out of tune. Then I wrote off nearly all of my Virgil, and then went to the depot with Mamma and Emma. Came home and finished my Virgil. After dinner I read and wrote my Virgil off again because it did not look neat.
Mar 20.
Wednesday. A very pleasant day.
Rode to school, and walked home alone, as Emma Codey had gone to the village. When I reached home I had to change my shoes and stocking, as I had wet them by going in the snow. I then had to go back to Mr Post's to get my Latin Book, so as to write my Composition. As I was coming home I met Samuel in the sleigh. I got in and drove to Mrs [Gadley's] for [Inlia], Dell and Fannie. He returned and after dinner I translated my composition.
A fine day.

 

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Mar 21
Thursday.
Mr Post had said that he would choose three persons to read off the Virgil for the whole school. two boys and one girl and if they read it well, the whole class could take any afternoon they wished. Eleven o'clock came and Mr Post told Eugene Hoppock to read first, he read fifty one lines. Then Mr Post said Lilly! let us see what you can do. So I commenced and read it off pretty well. Then Gus Hopkey read. Mr Post said we read it very well. I came home at two o'clock, and made my Composition. Then to the depot for Mamma and Papa. Then after dinner I read and went to meeting in the evening.
Mar 22
Friday.
Went to school and came home at two o'clock. then Emma Codey came over and we translated nearly all of our Virgil. Emma went home at five and left her lesson here. In evening I finsihed my Virgil and retired at eight.
Mar 23
Saturday. A fine day, but windy.
Rose at seven o'clock and after breakfast, I made my bed and fixed my room. Then I looked over my trunk to see if I could find any thing to make for Fannie for her birth-day. I found a dress which I had had for my doll. I [sent] it over for her doll and it made a very pretty dress. I did not finish it then, but put the things away and read a book. After lunch I dressed and sat down to read again. Then Papa and Mr Panlin came in from the city. After supper the children were

 

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washed and Julia and Emma and Miss McCombs went to see Mrs Richardson and I made a very pretty dress for a little doll, which Dell had brought home from the city for Fannie's birthday.
Mar 24.
Sunday. A beautiful day.
I went to church and heard an excellent sermon from Mr Panlin. In the afternoon I went to S.S. and taught a class of little boys. After SSS [sic] went to the Dutch Reformed Church and heard an interesting from Mr Peck. Effie Mills was there and she looked real sweet.
Mar 25.
Monday. A pleasant day.
I went to school and afterwards I went to Mr Dorlands with Effie Mills, as she wanted to get something for Emma's birthday. She asked to see some ribbons. The gentleman showed them to her, and after she had decided which to take and how much to have, she told him she would not take any then. I did not think it was very polite. Then I had to walk home alone. After I reached home I got my lesson and went to bed at usual time.
Mar 26.
Tuesday. It was a pleasant day.
Went to school and came home at usual time, then I finished my Latin lesson, then I played with Fannie and ran to meet Mother I ran too hard and then wanted to go to the barn to get Samuel to cut a tree for me, but Mother called me and I did not hear her and Father then came and he scolded me and sent me up stairs. But when I came

 

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down, he said I might go, in a little while I came back with a pretty little evergreen tree. In the evening I was advised by Mother not to dress the tree then but to dress it at Mrs Codey's the next day. So I got all things ready and retired.
Mar 27
Wednesday. A beautiful day.
I went to school and came home at twelve. Effie Mills walked nearly all the way home with me, she gave me a pretty little match box for to put on the tree for Emma and a little box of wooden furniture for Fannie from Lizzie and Bella. I then came home and reached home at a little past one I was not very good, so I was shut up in my room, while I was in there, I made a book-mark for Emma and wrote her a little note asking her to come to Jesus, and put it in a little Bible. Then I went over to Mrs Codey's and we hid Emma and Fannie while I carried the tree up stairs in Emma's room. While I was dressing it Effie came. she helped me and I soon got it done. Then Effie and I went over to see if Samuel had made my bouquet ready for to give to Emma I waited for it and we both went back and then dressed the cake with flowers. Then we went in the parlor and after tea which was very nice, we took Emma and Fannie into the parlor where the tree was. They were very much delighted with the tree but more so with their presents. In the evening Effie and I went in the corner of the room and had a nice little chat, she is a real sweet girl. Then

 

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we asked Emma, if she would lend us her Virgil and two sheets of paper, she said she would and just as we were nearly through with our Latin. Mr Chrystie's girl came in and gave us a great fright, she said she had broken her arm, because the horse had taken fright and thrown her out of the wagon and had gone on down the bank near Mr Francis, the driver was hurt a little. Effie took Emily Chrystie and Louise [Alvoid] and the two Clarks home in the carriage.
Mar 28
Thursday. A rainy day.
I went to school, and came home at two o'clock. Then I went to see Effie Mills, and translated my Virgil. Effie walked home with me. In the evening Grandmother, Father and Mother went to meeting.
Mar 29.
Friday. A fine day.
Walked to school and came home at two o'clock. Emma Codey came to see me, and I braided her hair nearly all around. She went home at five o'clock. I then went to dinner and afterwards, I wrote in my journal.
Mar 30
Saturday. A beautiful day.
Arose at usual time and after breakfast I fixed my room and then sat down to finish a book. Then I went to see Emma Codey, I stayed till three o'clock, and Emma came home with me. We took our hair down, and it crimps with her blue ribbon wound around twice and I wore mine flowing, it looked real pretty. Then we took a walk and when I came back I found Mr and Mrs Panlin and child here.
A fine day.

 

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Mar 31
Sunday.
I was tired this morning and did not get up till late. After breakfast I made my bed and dressed for church. I found Emma Codey waiting for me at the gate. We walked down together. In the afternoon I went to S.S. and afterwards went to the Dutch Reformed Church. Walked home with Josey Dudley and Ellan Martin. I did not go to church in the evening.
April 1
Monday. A lovely day.
Rode to school and came home a little past two o'clock, having waited to finish our Latin Lesson. It looked very much like rain and it did commence to rain just as I entered our gate. Then I practiced an hour. Then played out of doors.
Apr 2
Tuesday. A rainy day.
Went to school and Effie Mills walked home with me. I found Miss Loomis waiting for me. She bought me a new piece, called "Her bright smile haunts me still" It is very pretty. After I finished I wrote my Lesson and then Effie and Eddie Mills came to see if I would go a riding with them. I went and so did Cousin Julia.
Apr 3
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Thursday.
Went to school and Effie walked home with me. We stopped at Emma's to see if she could go out riding, her mother was [willing] and so Effie returned home. I went to see Emma but did not stay long, as I had to get ready for Effie and Eddie who were coming for us. As they did not come when we expected them Em and I walked down to them. We walked on till we found ourselves at Effie's. We called her and she came and said it was too late to go riding that day so Emma and I went down to the depot, and rode home in the carriage. In the evening I wrote my Composition.
Apr 5
Friday. A beautiful day.
Went down to the depot with Father at half past seven, met Effie at her gate, got out of the carriage and walked around the block by Mr Post three times, he saw ... gave us a scolding, but afterwards he was very pleasant and showed us our lessons. Came home and felt so tired I could hardly walk. Then took my music lesson, afterwards laid down on Julia's bed and went to sleep, then Mother soaked my feet.
Apr 6
Saturday. A rainy day.
I did not get up in the morning, because I did not feel well. After breakfast, Julia gave me some water to wash my face and hands. Then Mamma brought me my breakfast, and then I dressed and laid on the sofa and read, this was the way I spent the rest of day, till papa and Mr Lion came. In the evening we sang.
A beautiful day.

 

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Apr 7
Sunday
I awoke at half past eight and had my breakfast. All went to church, except Fannie and I. I wrote a letter to Mary Mills, but the paper torn and I will have to write it over. All went to S.S. but Mother and I. Mother fell asleep and I commenced to copy Mary letter, I only wrote a few lines, and as I fell tired I laid down on the sofa. In the evening I finished Mary's letter.
Apr 8
Monday. A beautiful day
I arose, dressed and got ready for school; when, after breakfast Mother said I had better not go. I helped Mamma until lunch. After which Mamma let me arrange some things in a box. I was thus occupied when Emma Codey came with a letter from Effie Mills Then Emma came to see me, and we translated our Latin Lesson. In the evening I [upset] the ink.
Apr 9
Tuesday. A fine day
I went to school and in the afternoon I got out my Latin Lesson, came home and practiced, Emma Codey came to ask me something in her Virgil, I told her and went back with her to her house and asked her mother if she could stay to dinner, she consented, so Emma and I returned in the evening we got out our [Parsing]. Briget came for Emma at eight o'clock.
Apr 10
Wednesday. A fine day.
I went to school, and in the afternoon Effie and I stayed to get our Latin, In the afternoon I wrote my Parsing and two examples in Algebra. Then I practiced a little, then went up in the cupola and put a piece of carpet on the floor for a play house. Mamma asked me what I was doing, I told her and asked her to let me have it, she said

 

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she would see, but told me to take the carpet away as it covered the house. I did and put a smaller piece instead. Grandma came home from New York, but Papa did not, so I slept with Mamma.
Apr 11
Thursday. A fine day.
I walked to school and did not get there till quite late. I stayed after school with Effie to finish my lessons, went home with a head-ache. Mamma put a wet towel around it and it was soon well. After running about a little, I went up in the garret and found an old rocking chair with no back. I took it to the cupola and made a back of a piece of board. I was there till Papa came then went to dinner in the sitting room, as the men were plastering in the dining room, after dinner I wrote my journal.
Apr 12
Friday. A fine day.
I walked to school and Effie Mills walked half-way home with me. After I had my lunch, I took my dolls to the cupola Then to dinner, then after reading I cut some jokes out of a paper for Emma.
Apr 13
Saturday A fine day.
Arose early, and made my bed. After breakfast I went in the woods and played for about an hour. Then I went to Emma Codey's and asked her to come over, she came and brought her dolls, we went up to the cupola and sewed. At two o'clock Emma went home and I dressed and then practised and went to the depot.
Apr 14
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Emma came to see me a few minutes. I asked Emma to come over and stay longer, she came at four and stayed till five. Then we had dinner and afterwards as Lottie and Lizzie Clark were here I played with them.
Apr 20
A pleasant day.
I arose early, and after breakfast Emma Codey came over and brought her Translation so that I could get out my Virgil letter I asked her to come and see me she said she would see and she came over quite early, we played till lunch. I asked Emma to stay she at last consented. After lunch Emma went home and I dressed and then practised, then Emma came back to borrow a book. Then Papa and Mr Panlin came and we had dinner.
Apr 21
Sunday. A pleasant day.
I went to church in the morning, and walked home, then had dinner, then went to S.S. and in the afternoon read and in the evening, as it rained I could not go to church.
Apr 22
Monday. A cloudy day.
I went to school and came home at two o'clock, then practised then played, then had dinner. In the evening I read.
Apr 23
Tuesday.
I went to school, and came home at two o'clock, then I took my music lesson, and went over for Emma Codey to come and see me, she came and we got out our Virgil together. In the evening Miss McCombs came and I went to bed at nine.
Apr 24
Wednesday. A fine day.
I went to school and after I came home I practised. Then I played then we had dinner and in the evening Emma and I played and [sung] till half past nine.
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Apr 25
Thursday.
I walked to school, and at ten o'clock Mr Whitney and Emma came in to see the school. After school I went to the village with Emma Codey and did not get home till four o'clock. I then began reading Our Young Folks, when Emma came back to get me to cut out some things for her doll. Then we had dinner and afterwards Grandma, Papa, and Mr. Whitney went to meeting.
Apr 26
Friday. A beautiful day.
I walked to school, and afterwards to the village with Emma Codey. After I came home I took my music lesson and then a bath. Then I went to dinner.
Apr 27
Saturday. A pleasant day.
I arose at six o'clock, and prepared to get ready for to go to the city I then had my breakfast and went to the boat. On our way to the city I was introduced by Mother to Mr Wilde a young gentleman who was on board. We arrived at the city at ten o'clock. Then we went to Mr Bradley for to make a purchase. Then went to Mr Bontillier's and I bought a [chewy] ribbon for myself. Then went to Misses Moyers, Steward and Slater, then took a fifth avenue stage and arrived at Aunt Laura's just in time to escape a rain. Then Mamma left me at Aunt Laura's and went home. All wore out but Aunt Laura. At last Lolly and Harry came in and I played with Harry till the girls came in, then we had dinner and then the girls went out again and I staid with Aunt Laura till we went to tea. Alex was there and he staid till nine o'clock. I like him very much.
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Apr 28
Sunday.
Fannie and I arose at seven and had our breakfast alone, then we went to SS, then to church, heard a Mr Arnold from Hamilton, an excellent sermon Met Alma and [Linele] John. I walked home with Alex and Fannie. In the afternoon I read and Alex came at five o'clock I went to church in the evening and heard Dr Western preach I went to bed at ten o'clock.
Apr 29
Monday. A pleasant day
I arose at eight o'clock. After breakfast Alex came to see Fannie. I told little Harry some stories. Then I read a book which Fannie lent me, we had dinner at one o'clock. Grandma came in in the morning to borrow an umbrella. In the afternoon I read a book and in the evening Cousin Harry came in.
Apr 30
Tuesday. A rainy day.
In the morning I read, then Grandma came in to return the umbrella she had borrowed. At two o'clock Fannie and I started to go to [Banngan's] Tableaux, we found they were open every night, so we had to return home. In the evening Fannie went out and I went to bed at ten o'clock.
May 1
Wednesday A rainy day.
I arose and had my breakfast, and then played with Harry. In the afternoon Fannie and I dressed to go to Mollie's. but as it rained we could not go, but by and by it cleared we took a walk. In the evening I went to a comic concert with Mr Livingston and Lilly and then to an Ice Cream Saloon and had some ice cream, and altogether I had a splendid time I like Mr Livingston very much.
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May 2
Thursday.
At nine o'clock this morning the door bell rung and Alex had come to take Fannie out riding and we were all in bed. Fannie hurried and she had to wait ten minutes as Alex had driven off. At half past eleven Fannie and I walked to Aunt Emma's, Fan left me there and went home. I spent the rest of the day at Auntie's and came back at seven. I brough Harry a little book and some candy. he is so sweet. I went to bed at ten o'clock.
May 3
Friday. A fine day.
I awoke in the morning and found Fannie sleeping with me as Miss [Seinfield] and Jennie slept together. After breakfast, Fannie and I went out to have our ten types taken, we did, and then went to see Aunt Jennie, then came home and found it three o'clock. At half past seven Lilly and I went to see Coursin Harry, we took tea there and came home at ten.
May 4
Saturday. A beautiful day
In the morning I went to market with Fannie, then Jennie took me to the Academy of Design. … there met Cousin Mattie and Mary. Came home and at two o'clock had dinner, then Mamma and Emma came to take me home. We persuaded Fannie to go with us. We reached home at half past five. In the evening we sang and went to bed at nine.
May 5
Sunday. A beautiful day.
I went to church in the morning and heard a very good sermon from Mr Panlin. In the afternoon I went to SS and taught a class. Then went to the Dutch Reformed Church. In the evening I went to church.
May 6
Monday. A pleasant day
I went to school and came home at two o'clock, then practiced then played then had dinner.

 

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May 7
Tuesday
I went to school and two o'clock came home, and took my music lesson then played, then had dinner.
May 8
Wednesday.
Papa did not go to the city and as it rained Samuel drove me to school, after school I took Effie and Emma home, then Emma came to see me, then we had dinner. I went to bed at nine.
May 9
Thursday. A rainy day.
I walked to school, and walked home, then I took a walk with Emma then had to practice, then had dinner, then read.
May 10
Friday. A cloudy day
I walked to school and afterwards I waited for Effie to walk home with me, she did and then I went in and found that Miss Loomis had gone, so I played till dinner. In the evening Miss McCombs and I went to bed at half past eight.
May 11
Saturday. A pleasant day
I went to the depot and got out at Effie to get some books which I had lent her. She came home with me and spent the morning and at half past one Sister Emma and I walked home with her, then Emma and I went in Mr Hall's to get some violets, returned home feeling tired. I then laid down on the bed and read, then went to the depot and as Papa and Fannie did not come, went again with Emma. In the evening I took a bath.
May 12
Sunday. A fine day
I went to church, and wore my new suit, then walked home. Mr Tucker, wife and child to dinner. In the afternoon I went to SS and communion. Then I came home and had tea. In the evening went to church
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May 13
Monday.
I walked to school, and in the afternoon Effie walked home with me and then we met Emma and we walked home with Effie, then Emma and I went to the post-office, and then returned home. I did not get home till half past four. then we had dinner, in the eveing the two Mrs Codeys's and Mrs Adams called. It is a year ago since I was baptised.
May 14
Tuesday A plesasant day.
I arose early, as Papa was going away and Emma, Dell and Fannie went to Yonkers with him. I went to school and came home at two o'clock and found Miss Loomis waiting for me. After I took my lesson, Annie Mattison came to see me and in the evening I read.
May 15
A fine day
I rode to school and in the afternoon. I went to see Effie. Eddie was sick so they could not come to see me. Effie walked up with me and I walked down to Washington Avenue with her. Then I returned home and found dinner ready. In the evening I studied.
May 16
Thursday Looked rather cloudy, but cleared.
As I walked to school, I stopped to inquire how Emma Codey was, as she has the measles. In the afternoon I stopped again. Then Fannie and I made a little garden of violets. After dinner, as I was getting my lesson Mr Peck and family came to see me.
May 17
Friday. A fine day.
I arose and found it raining. I went to school and afterwards Effie walked home with me, when we got to Mr Draper's gate, we met Emma she told me to go back and ask Effie's mother if she could come and see me so I went and Mrs Mills said yes. I waited for Effie. After we

 

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got home I dressed and then Eddie came. I told his fortune and then he went for George and Effie and I walked a little way to meet him. he did not come and Effie was very much disappointed. Then we had tea. In the evening we played and sung. They went away at nine.
May 18
Saturday Cloudy in the morning, but cleared.
I arose quite early and after breakfast Julia braided my hair and I went out to get some flowers for my garden, then had lunch. Then got dressed, as Effie and Eddie were coming to take me out riding. They came at three and we had a very pleasant drive came home at seven, then had dinner and read.
May 19
Sunday. A fine day.
I heard a very good sermon, walked home and had dinner then went to SS. and afterwards Julia, Emma and I went to the Dutch Reformed Church. Willie Richardson walked home with us, and then we had tea. I went to church in the evening.
May 20
Monday. A beautiful day
I rode to school, and Effie walked home with me, then I went to see Emma Codey, She was a great deal better. Then went home and practised had dinner and in the evening studied my lesson.
May 21
Tuesday A rainy day
I walked to school and walked home, then as I found Miss Loomis had gone to Anna Provost's I went with Fannie in the garden and dug up some ground which Father had given us, then Eddie Mills wanted to see me I went and talked to him till Miss Loomis came, after

 

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I had taken my lesson Emma and I walked to the depot with Miss Loomis and received a letter from Papa. In the evening I studied.
May 22.
Wednesday. A rainy day.
I rode to school and when I got there, found I had left my books home, so I had to go back for them. Effie and Eddie walked home with me and staid half an hour. I walked a little way back with them and met Emma, when I remembered leaving my umbrella at Mr Post's, so I walked down for it. Effie went in with me, while Emma and Eddie waited at the church. I got my umbrella and just for fun I put it up and then Effie and I got out our handkerchief and made believe to cry when I saw Mr Wilde on horseback talking to Emma, we ran behind a horse but soon came out then we went home and had tea, and then studied.
May 23
Thursday. A rainy day
I walked to and fro school and practised; then waited for Eddie to come for some flowers which Mamma was going to give to Mrs Mills. he did not come and I went to dinner and afterwards Miss McCombs, Emma, Dell, Fannie, and I took a walk. In the evening I got out my lesson.
May 24
Friday. A pleasant day.
I walked to school and came home at half past one to take my music lesson, when I got home I was called in the dining room to see who was there and found Alex and Fannie, they staid till four o'clock. while they were I introduced Effie to Fannie. Eddie and Effie came to take the flowers and staid till five o'clock.

 

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then Emma and I walked to the Post Office and got a letter from Papa.
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The Aspen Tree
Cease thy quivering, Aspen Tree,
Cease from shivering, Aspen Tree!
The summer breeze
Now sleeps in the trees,
With silence at rest,
Like a child on its breast;
Yet still you quiver,
Still you shiver

Is all thy troubling, Aspen Tree,
But strange dissembling, Aspen Tree?
Or do you know
A tale of woe,
That you must still
With horror thrill?
"Ah, still I trouble,
Nor dissemble.

Ah, tell to me, sad Aspen Tree!
Is it the Nightingale's sweet trilling
That thus through all thy leaves is thrilling?
And art thou sad,
Nor ever glad.
Because on the rose.
His love he bestows?
"Ah no! my …, curous maiden,
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Oh, tell to me, sad Aspen Tree,
What all this secret grief may be!
For I have watched and learned to love thee,
And … would know what thus can move thee!
Thus spake I to the Aspen Tree,
And this the tale it told to me.

Once long ago, was I as gay
As Judah's long, bright summer day;
Without a shiver,
Without a quiver.
Love when the breeze
Long happy glees
Through all the trees.
And a little bird had built her nest
In the deepest green of my leafy breast.

The sun … shone more brightly then,
The earth was [nor] so cold;
For the … walked 'mong sinful view,
And drew them to His field.
And every night,
Ere stars were bright,
My little bird sang free and light;
And all her singing still was ringing
With the sweet tale that pitying Love.
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But there came all eve, a mournful eve,
When my little bird came home to grieve;
Sadly she chirped o'er her [nestling] pain.
Hidden away in my leafy hair;
For far [adored] the darksome glen,
She had heard the heavy tramp of men
They were coming to cut a forest tree;
And the said, as they laughed in unhallow'd glee,
That the [Nazaveue's] … it surely should be.
And I could but borrow
A nameless sorrow
A nameless dread
Ah the heavy tread
Of the armed men [adorn] the glen.
Ah! had I but withered and fallen then!

For I was the tree, the innocent tree,
The loving, and yet the accursed tree.
That witnessed the … agony!
I felt the shock of the cruel rail,
I heard that dying, despairing wail!
Ah! can you wonder
That I whose fibres were … assunder
When the … sacred body was torn
By the cruel wail and the cruel horn,
When the … heart was torn with pairs,
And the rail of the Temple, was rent in [twaine],
That I should quiver,
That I should shiver

 

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And the little bird who dwelt with me
When I was a happy greenwood tree,
Though it could [nor] speak,
With its tender beak,
Lo draw the iron wails it strove,
From the … pierced hands glove.
It could nor succeed
In it's loving deed,
But it gained a [meed]
Of … reward; for the sacred blood
That … from the wounded hands of lord,
For need a crimson cross on its little bill,
A cross that is painted on it still.

And I, I too, was glorified;
For the … blessed me ere he died;
Yet I must remember the dread of that day
Forever and aye forever and aye;
And still I quiver,
Still I shiver.

From "The Legends of the Cross" C.W.
Copied, Julie 6, 1872.

 

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Oct 31, 1872. Thursday Evening. Room 44, Vassar College.
It seems strange that I have written in my journal on this date for five years - it seems to be an important day with me. the records of which have been sometimes very sad - but now I can write of happy events. The last year has been very bright - like a picture as I look at it tonight. God has been very kind, very fatherly to me, and has answered the prayer I [made] a year ago, to guide me and, yes, I can say that He has given me more of His …. I think I love Christ more tonight than I ever did before - may I be able to work that every succeeding year - I don't think I am more righteous, only that I have tried to serve Him, and to love Him better, and that I take more pleasure in it now. Last night I felt so near to Jesus, and tonight too as I made the blessed promise of God to His people "If the wicked restore the pledge, give again that he had robbed, walk in the [stalutries] of life, without committing iniquity; he shall surely live, he shall nor die. None of his … that he hath committed shall be mentioned unto him, he hath done that which is [loveful] and right; he shall surely live" [side note: Ezekiel, chap. 33. 15 & 16] This summer was quite eventful to me, as it brought me in contact with one who has now by his words and actions declared himself a suitor - a lover - If this was only silly nonsense, I would not dare to write it here, but to me it seems serious, and I [know] it is … [Pappin], as he is called. A true woman's affection is no small gift to ask for, no small thing

 

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… [bastion], and the asking and the giving decide the happiness of two lives. Must I [not] think, must I [not] be [lure] of right, must I not ask God's help in this as in everything else? I will never marry unless I can give my whole love, and until I can be sure I do this, I will not be engaged to anyone. This years finds me a Senior - situated most happily in single rooms in 44 - on 2nd Cor. the "Senior Corridor" as it is called. Only two [share] the [confines] of this little home, Clara Wilson and I - She is a noble, darling girl, one when I can love and respect - "[music fuzzy limbs fawn]", … I laughingly call her and sincerely do. She said last night something so smart that I must rememebr it. not in praise of myself but showing her kind heart. "You are the smartest girl I know, Lilla, and good, just good! I know of no-one whose life I saw so clearly as yours - a bright, happy life - one in which you will do much good", and I prayed, one whose here after will be in Heaven, near Jesus. Grandma is still [spared] to us - … old lady, I wish I was only more … and kind to you - darling precious Mother - still looks after her little flock of girls - which there are many - Adele and Fannie at Miss Buckley's in Tarrytown, I [here]. Emmie is at home, brightening up the dear place with her sweet generous [warp] - "and making music wherever she goes" - Julie at home - industrious as ever devoted to Mrs [Meesore] - God bless us all!

 

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Oct. 31, 1873. Friday Moning. Hastings.
The dear Vassar life is over - and my school days will never come again. That has a mournful ring to it - but it only echoes the louder … my heart. How truely Goethe has said
"[Goethe quotation in German]"
While at Vassar I looked forward to this date with joyful anticipation - and now that it has come I look back with longing eyes upon the past wish that it were the present.
All old grandmas say that "your school days are your happiest" and I though only twenty, begin to believe them. I am [ever] happy as I hoped to be - perhaps the fault is my own; but whether my own or someone's else, the fact is the [sauce]. My Vassar education while it is my greatest blessing, is my greatest bane. It has made me a better, truer, nobler, woman that I would have been without it - it has opened my eyes to higher things, has enlarged my mind, and purified my heart; and yet when I [brought] [it] me into my home life, it is the "apple

 

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of discord" Sometimes I wish that I had never received it - but I turn and feel that I would nor give it up, for it has made me stronger to go through life. Yet were it not for this education, I would be subjected to less unhappiness at home and would perhaps be engaged to somebody who has given me a true, honest love. It is not Gus Pappin but he whom I have been want to call "[Iso-ih]". Yes I know that if I did not feel how inferior his education was to mine, I could reward his love - but that holds me back and causes me sorrow and suffering.
I do not know how I have won his love - but because I have, I have been called a "[flink]."
I do not know when I have suffered more than I did last night - my heart quivered under the cruel [taunts] that were thrown [around] and it was harder because I knew that they were unjust - for if ever a woman tried to be true and noble toward a lover, I have tried - they little know how many hours I have spent on my knees, pleading with God that He would show me my duty and make my [neatness] perfect in His strength.
I have left it all with Him - and He will lead me. I am glad I can feel that I can go to Him always. I feel secure only when I can [lehrish] - for I can trust Him. May I never lose the love and trust I have for Him now. The year has gone

 

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[by] happily for the most part I said goodbye to 44 sadly, for there I said goodbye to Clara. She was all I could ask for a room mate and friend - oh, my [more] [franzlinbefore] - shall I ever be so happy again as I have been with you? If I could only [hear] from her own dear lips that she had found Christ - if I could only hear her say - "Lord, I believe help thou mine unbelief" - it would make me so happy. Oh, that God would answer my prayers that she might see the light again!
In spite of my troubles and unhappiness I have one great comfort and that is the love of [Emma] Kassau. If ever any one loved me honestly, she does. She was with me this June here at home for a few days, and always thinking [fine]. It is wrong for us to murmur, when I think of her troubles - [at] home and [her] mother. I wish I had a home for my own, so as to have her share it with me. I often thank God that He brought us together, for her love keeps us to live better. If I was only as good and lovely in my character as she believes us to be - I would be thankful. I often wonder why I cling so to this day - this 31st of Oct. It is the anniversary of the day of my entrance to Vassar. and that was the beginning of a new life for me - well I have begun another now - may it be blessed to my good! Oh, dear Heavenly Father, wish Those not make me patient and kind? and may my life be worthy of one of Christ's discuples. Help us to live and act so that I am better in the pearly gates and hear the well done at last.

 

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Oct 31th 1867. Came to Vassar College, was examined, passed and am a student.
Nov 28th 1867
I spent Thanksgiving Day at home, Belle went with me, we came back on Friday morning.
Dec 18th, 1867.
I went home alone, and staid home till Jan 3rd.
Feb 22nd 1868.
I went home, Belle went with me we staid till Monday.
April 8th 1868.
I went home staid a week. Addie Peck came back with me to be a student.
Founder's Day April 29th 1868.
At four o'clock I commenced to dress and at a few minutes past six all the students assembled in the 1st corridor while we were there it began to rain so all our arrangements for going to the lodge were put aside and we had to go to the fourth floor by the side stairs and descend to the second corridor by the main stairway singing the Welcome Song the second corridor was lined with people, Mr Vassar, Miss Lyman and President Raymond standing in the entry, we went again to the fourth floor, took chairs from one of the rooms and hurried to the gallery there [we]

 

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Dec. 2, 1873. In copying this, I find that I have given a very meagre account of my life at Vassar during the first year - Two facts have been recorded - I have not once mentioned any friends who I made - one of whom [Ed. above text in smaller type] procured pretty good seats and after some little delay the exercises began - they were very pleasing and last some two hours or more afterwards there was a collation given in the dining hall. I procured a taste of a [fear] things and there the bell stuck for retiring and I left for my room.
Commencement, June 24th 1868.
June 22nd
During the day I packed and in the evening went to the concert in the Chapel, had to sit in the Gallery -
June 23rd
Shall I ever forgot this day it was indeed a sad one to all the inmates of Vassar College, we had expected to have an entertainment in the afternoon as this was Class Day but "Man proposes, God disposes" we were all in the our rooms when one of the girls came and told us that dear Mr Vassar was dead we were thunder-struck, it seemed impossible, but too true was the report. Our noble Founder, Mr Matthew Vassar was dead, it seemed that the annual meeting of the Trustee was that day Mr Vassar came to the

 

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I must speak of even now. … [Islover] - she was [it] now Mrs. … certainly deserved a palce in these pages. for she was a sister to me during that year and I loved her dearly as I do not yet, though her [Ed. Above text is written smaller in the heading]
meeting and after all other business was over began to read something he had written, he spoke of the future welfare of the College and laid out plans for it, he had almost concluded when his voice sunk lower and lower, his paper drop and, his head fell and Mr Vassar was dead he died of heart disease at ten minutes past twelve, in the Library, of Vassar College. After dinner we went to see him once more, for the last time on earth the exercises of the afternoon were postponed and at four o'clock all the girls assembled in the Chapel and Pres. Raymond related the sad occurence of the morning and started that the exercises of the following day would go on just the same as he knew that of Mr Vassar had know what was to happen such such have been his desire, he said that after examining the paper which he had been reading they found that all that remained of the piece was some concluding remarks among which he said he did not expect to be with them another year, that this was the last meeting he shoud be with them.
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marriage and distant home have done a great deal to lessen the intimacy. Being much older than I. I looked up to her with much respect and found in her a good, kind, and loving sister, as she used [Ed. above text written smaller in the heading]
after, there were twenty five in the graduating class the following had essays, Misses Whitney, Avery, Glover, Rhodes Blackley, Beckwith, Glazier Ely and Miss Stork a poem, at one o'clock we left the Chapel and went to the dining hall had dinner then I went to my room, put on my hat and started for the hall the omni bus did [not] come so 6 took a carriage and got at the depot just in time.
Sept. 17. 1868
Came back to Vassar, went right to Room 19 and found there (3) young ladies in there, told them this was my room this year. After I took off my things I went to a lecture by Prof. Hart, then to dinner and came to my room and felt quite lonely when Nannie Woods came in I was delighted to see her. My roommate is Sallie Peck. I did not like her at first at all, but like her much better now.
April 1st.
How many changes! How time flies! Sallie has gone, how I love her! I hardly knew I thought so much of her till she said she was going. But she will be happier, so I must not murmur.
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to call herself. [Even] if I never see her again I shall always remember her with love, and thank her sincerely for the knidness she showed to the little girl who was just beginning to learn some of life's lessons. [Ed. Above text smaller in the heading]
[Fair] Moses took her up some flowers. I believe she would give her life for Sallie if it was needful. Last night we had a meeting of the Students' Association, Pres. Raymond talked to us and then he was asked to remain, he consented, then there was a very strong discussion concerning Founder's Day What spiteful things the girls said, they might as well have had a regular fight, at last the [true] for the entertainment on Founder's Day was appointed from 3 P.M. till 7 PM. there is to be no [collation] I believe though it is hard to tell. I thought the Spring had come but now it has begun to snow. Oh! dear! Oh! dear. Lillie Thomas.
Founder's Day April 29th 1869.
As this was the first Founder's Day since the death of Mr Vassar, it was settled that the exercises should be different therefore it was determined by the committee that there should be a poem (by Miss Taylor) Music, Eulogy by Miss Whitney (Class of '68) and hymn by Choral class. The exercises began at three, ended at seven. At a little past three we all assembled in the Chapel. (I was in the gallery) and the exercises began. The poem was beautiful Miss Witney delivered the Eulogy very well. Prof. Roberts said he never heard a woman speak as well I don't believe he could have surpassed it. We were in the Chapel for two hours and then we descended to the dining hall some of us girls stationed ourselves near a table on which was plenty of ice cream, of which we had as much as we wished. One orange found its way to my pocket very strangely and some other things

 

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I must write here a circumstance which I want to remember - my first meeting with Clara. I was in the corridor with Belle when a lady came up to me and said - "Won't you please give me a kiss?" My childish ideas [Ed. Above is smaller text in the heading]
found their way to my mouth. I then walked up and down the corridor with some of the girls and talked of the entertainments. Some of the old students were here it seemed so pleasant to see them again; among them were Annie Gregory and [Nattie] [Broom]. At ten I retired to my room and there Founder's Day April 29th 1869 - ended.
May 3rd 1869. Monday.
Dear! Dear!! Who would have thought a few days ago that I had to leave this dear little room. I did not for one. But to day just before dinner The messenger-girl came to me said that Miss Lyman wished to see me in her parlor. I went trying to think for what she wished to see me. When I got there she said, "My dear, I am going to change your room." After a while she told me she wished to put me on the third floor in the north east corner room with Miss Brace, the girls all say she is a sweet girl but I do not know her and can not tell and therefore feel badly about changing. So might Miss Lyman send me a little note "Dear Lilla, Miss Braislin will do all she can to make you happy and I should like you to get settled as soon as you can." Annie and Florence are coming in here, tomorrow. I am going to Miss Lyman to ask her if I could go in Sallie's room. O! that she would let me. I am so afraid she will not, I suppose I must try to be contented but it is hard.

 

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of propriety were quite shocked, but that kiss was the beginning of something sweeter - something which, I hope, will [line] us our hearts for ever. My "sister Clara" is now married and living in Boston with her husband and two little ones.
June 20th 1869. Last evening we invited a few of our friends to 49 - to enjoy with us a little of use on the last Saturday night of this College year. The morning of that day we spent in arranging the room with flowers etc. The young ladies here honored me by appointing me usher and so with my wand and programmes I received the visitor and placed them in their seats. About eight o'clock we began our tableaux. They lasted for an hour and then we passed around strawberries. I think every one enjoyed the evening I did for one. Kate Howard and [Nannie] Brayton were my company.
Spt. 22, 1869. Wednesday.
Here I am again "Old College home." I room with Emma Kasson, the fourth floor, south, number 83. We have a parlor and bed-room together. It seems like a little house. A Miss Duck has the other bed room. but like a good girl, does not [come] much in the parlor. So Emma and I are all alone most of the time. Our parlor is one of the prettiest in the College, and we feel very [fond] of it indeed. It is a square home A [den] in the north west corner leads into the hall, another door in the west sides of … into the bedroom. On the left side of this door is a group of pictures, are larger, three small. In the south west corner is the … … … which are rustic frames, pictures and vases filled with fresh liners. On the south side of room is a group of three large pictures

 

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under the centre one is a basket on a which stands a vase of of flowers. Under the basket is Emma's little desk on which is a set of beautiful [my], which is trimmed around the basket. On the east side is the large window over which are … the pretty … curtains, On the window sill are pots of flowers. Under the window is a trunk came it with …. On such side of windows is …. On the north is a group of …. [an], large, [threw] small. In the north east corner in the table covered with pretty cloth. In the south east corner is a pretty easy chair. Altogether our room is lovely. A bright carpet of … … covers the floor. Emma and I are both Freshmen and study Latin, French and Algebra. I read Virgil now and like it. Emma and I love each other very much and are happy together. A good many old girls are back this year . and a good many not back I am going to study hard this year and be a good student.

 

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Oct. 31, 1867.
Today I came to Vassar College
Oct 31, 1868.
Today I am home, sick. Day before yesterday … darling Papa had a stroke of Paralysis. It affected his left side. It is very hard to see him so helpless.
Oct. 31, 1869. Today I am back at the College. Two weeks ago last night, Willie Richardson came at nine o'clock to take me home. He said that Papa was worse and that Mother wished me home. I left the College immediately we reached Poughkeepsie at ten o'clock. Until eleven o'clock we remained at the Morgan House. Then we walked to the depot and to our disappointment there discovered that the train at 11.55 was only a freight train. We were obliged to wait until 2.07 in the depot. We reached Dobb's Ferry at nearly five o'clock. Joseph was not there; but in twenty minutes he came. When we reached home, it was nearly six. Then they told me that Papa had died at twenty minutes of four. Yes, it was too true. God had taken him home two weeks ago today. Papa, Papa, what can I do without you!! But I must not murmur at God's will. Dear Father is now far from suffering. He left a message for me, his little daughter. He said, "tell Lillie to live near to Jesus and meet me in Heaven," then presently he added, "I know the dear child will." May God help me to do this! Poor little Emma Kasson is sick and was obliged to go home before and returned. She is now in Geneva, or will be there very soon. I have a new room-mate, a Miss [Calls].

 

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She is very pleasant, and I think I shall like her ever so much. The girls are all very kind to me. This year I am a Freshman. I wonder where I will be a year from today.
Oct. 31, 1870.
Sitting in the single room, [a], in parlor 26, in Vassar College, for the fourth time since I hace been here, I begin to write in my journal the records of another year ending today.
Three years ago today I came to Vassar, and here I am yet, enjoying the same privileges in knowledge, strength, and health.
God has been very good to me during the year, has given me dear, good friends, and more of his love than ever, so it seems to me. Yes, I am still at Vassar studying in the Sophomore Class, a Class of which I am proud to be a member.
[Minnie] Monroe, our beloved president, is with me in this parlor, and I find that I love her more every day, dear Minnie! I hope that she loves me! I have found a very sweet little friend in Lizzie Dyckman, a new scholar, about two months younger than I. Emmie Griffeth and Adelaide Steel are still my good, old friends Carrie Clapp is as motherly as ever and will still persist in calling me her "little girl." I see a good deal of Minnie Chapman now, a lovely girl and [are] who can win the heart of any-one and especially the heard of Lillie Thomas. Nellie Ells still retains her prettiness and sweetness, and will always have a warm share of my love. Belle Heath has left a vacuum behind her which can not be filled bu any one else. But enough for the year is looking it over. I find more causes to say in heartfelt tones "God be thanked for his mercy, and goodness

 

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Oct. 31, 1871.
Still at Vassar - in my Junior year. The circumstances by which I am surrounded this year, are very pleasant. I have the single room "b" on the 1st South in 17; having Miss [Hopon] in the room adjoining mine and Emmie Griffiths and Nannie Brayton as parlor-mates. My studies are very interesting and instructive. German, Geology, and Whately's Rhetoric. This year I see very little of Adelaide Skeel, but I like her still, although we do not know each other so well as formerly. Carrie Clapp is not here this year, but teaching in Brooklyn. Blanche Wilder has again joined her class-mates, who give her a most hearty welcome. To-day I received the engagement cards of Belle Heath and Dr. von …. Belle is still in Germany, but will probably return next spring. I can not close the records of another year, without writing something of the love of God to me. I earnestly strive to serve my Master, and, learn of Him. May God help me, and may it not be said of my labors, "nothing but leaves". Dear Papa said to me once." Watch and pray," and his words have made a deep impression upon me. May I never forget them! May God keep me during this coming year, guide my for-steps, and direct my actions!

 

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Nov. 28, 1869. Sunday.
To-day is my sixteenth birthday! It is a beautiful day and the girls all try to make it pleasant for me. Marnie has given me some beautiful flowers. Dear child! It was so kind for her to think of me. I have only known her for five or six weeks, and yet I have learned to love her very dearly. I went to walk with Carrie Clapp. She was very sweet indeed. Belle Heath gave me a pretty little book. I really believe Belle loves me. I hope so, for I love her very much. Mamma did not forget her little daughter away at school. She sent me a box and each of the family contributed something to it. Miss Swayze wrote me a sweet birth-day note, and she came to see me besides. It was her birth-day also. I wonder how old she is! Although the day has been very pleasant; yet every thing cam not be all sunshine. There is a shadow to every-thing, I think. A very dark shadow has been cast over my birthday and over my life now. A year ago to-day, I had a loving and loved Father on earth. Now he has gone to Heaven. Little did I know a year ago, that God would take him away so soon from me. About six weeks ago darling Papa died. But he has gone to his House to be with

 

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Jesus, and I must not wish him back.
Dec. 10, 1869. Friday.
A week ago to day I saw Clara Glover or now Mrs Ginn. She has changed a good deal, grown to look older, but just as lovely as ever. I was so glad to see her. But she was so busy seeing people all the day, that I only saw her for about ten minutes. How I longed to fold her in my arms. To-day I received a tiny package through the mail. On opening it, I discovered it to be a lovely little … from Clara. 'Twas for my birthday. How sweet in her to remember me. This evening the entertainment of the Society was held. I had no [envy] away, but had a pretty good time. Marnie Skillings looked lovely, her two brothers were here and one of them brought her a bouquet. It was a lovely one and when I said goodnight to Marnie, what did the naughty little thing do, but give it to me. But I don't think she is naughty a bit. She is a dear, sweet child and I love her dearly.

 

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Feb. 13, 1870. SUnday Morning.
How the time flies! 1869 has gone and 1870 has come. I fear I am no better than I was a year ago; but, yes, I think I am just a little. I am trying to conquer some of my faults. I hope I will succeed; but it is very hard. Examinations are over. I succeeded nicely, for which I am very glad. Every thing goes on as usual, and the only thing which cheers me [now] and, is the thought of going home. How sweet that [word] sounds! What would I do without a home! I am studying Livy now, and I find it quite hard. Geometry, I am sure I will like. Last Thursday Miss Lyman came up to Miss [Duete's] room - where I was with [Iuskie]. She (Miss Lyman) scolded me for laughing so loud. I felt really ashamed of myself, so the next morning I went to Miss Lyman and apologized for my conduct. She was lovely.

 

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March 6th, 1870. Sunday Afternoon.
Oh dear, I feel forlorn! Why I don't know. I don't feel like going to see any body so I think I'll spend a half hour before tea with my dear old journal, to whom I tell ever so many things which I could not to people. Another little quarrel with Marnie! Dear me, I'm sorry, but I can't help it. She does act so queer to me some times. I know she is tired of me; she shows it in every [word] she says and every thing she does. Well I knew she would some-times see me in a dearer light and then leave me. Really it is hard to know who to believe. I did think once that she would always love me. I loved her more than I did any one else here at one time, but I do not now, although I love her dearly. I fear if she goes on being so cool all the love I ever had for her will take wings; but no, I am not like that, I hope. I can not love people and then forget them very soon after. I wonder if I am acting wrong, whether I should go to her and try and "make up". I am a little proud and then Marnie thinks I'll do it I guess I'll show her I can be cool too. My conscience keeps asking me if that would be right, and I'll tell you

 

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old journal, what I think. My answer is that I know it is not right, but, dear me, I can't always do right, can you? Belle, bless her is going to try to be peace-maker; but I imagine that Marnie will be more angry than ever at me for telling Belle. I don't care. I wanted to tell some-body, and besides Belle had some-thing to do with it. I think. She has gone to see Marnie now and I hear them talking out in the corridor as they pass by my door. Dear me! I wish that I was good, but I [ain't] and wishing will do no good. Darling little Miss Swayze came to see me last night, and said that she would come again to-day. I do think she is so lovely. I love her better than any one else here. I am so glad the other saw her when she was here on Washington's Birth-day. By the [bye] was't Mamma sweet come then and bring the liitle ones. Dear Mother how I love her and how much she does for me. I am so anxious to see Belle. How lovely Miss Lyman is in Bible class! She says so much about influence I wonder if I have any influence

 

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over my friends, and if I have … when, in particular. Would that little Emma Kasson was here with me now. Dear little girl, how I love her! When I think of it, I love ever so many people, and I love each one ever so much. I think my heart must be very big. That's the reason I'm so wicked. I suppose my heart is so big, that a great deal of wickedness can enter there in. The supper bell is ringing so good-bye dear old journal. I'll come again soon, perhaps.
Wednesday Morning March 16th, 1870.
Just ten days ago since I last saw you, old journal; now don't complain, for I'm here. Well, so you want to know what I've been doing; nothing, except going around the house barking like a little dog, or rather a big one. Yesterday I was sick, Are you sorry? To-day as I can't talk, I am going to unite, and that is the only reason that you see me here. Well, I went on a sleigh ride, a week ago last night and then I [marbled]. I know it was wrong.

 

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but couldn't help it. [You] needn't scold, it won't do a bit of good. Miss Denis can testify to that fact. So you want to know who she is. well, it's my corridor teacher and, (now don't you tell) I don't like her very much, although she's very kind, I suppose. It's the coldest day you ever saw, and I am freezing by way of variety. It's all over with Marnie Skillings, she don't speak to me now. Rather fickle, as I thought. I don't like her nearly as much as I used to. [Connie] Clapp came to see me on Sunday; I thought I'd tell you, because she has not been here for ages. Geo. … is going to address us on Founder's Day. I feel terribly harem-sarem this morning don't suppose I've spelt that word right; but never mind you understand. Phew! how the mind blows, just like the mischief Don't find fault with my …, if you please; I'm rather touchy on that point. Now, good-bye. I'l come again; and I hope you will be more amiable.
Friday Afternoon, March 18th, 1870.
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not have come now, if I could have helped myself. But [Mr.] Avery said I'd better, as my cough would bot be cured very quick if I went around the house. I have only seen one of the girls here, there are four besdies myself, I believe. I am real tired, and think I'll go to sleep so I'll bid you au revoir for the present.
Sunday. March 20, 1870.
Well, I'm better this morning.
Monday March. 28th, 1870.
Dear me, I don't see why I can't go out; I belive that Dr. Avery wants to keep me in here forever. This last week I have been here, and never studied a bit. All I did from morning till night was to change compresses, sleep, order meals, take powders, and talk to the Measles through the key-hole. Friday morning Marnie Whitney came back, I am so glad that she's here, for I should be awfully lonesome without her. She is a dear little thing, and I've learned to love her already. Saturday evening Miss Jameson came here; this morning Miss Peck made the sixth in the …. I used to like her, but she has changed so much that my affections have changed also. I hope I'll get my books to-day, for I so

 

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much to make up in my studies.
Monday, May 9th, 1870.
After staying in the Infirmary, I left College for home where I stayed until vacation was over. I came back on the 18th of April feeling ever so much better. Every thing went on as usual until Founders' Day about which I will try to say some things.
Founder's Day came round as usual on the 29th of April of course, we were excused from all duties and had the day to ourselves. I passed the morning in studying, the afternoon in reading and serving. At five we had tea and immediately after I dressed, … a black and white strpied silk, trimmed with satin and lace. it was very pretty indeed.
I had expected Marie Lappin to come, but was disappointed by not seeing her, or any one else I knew. At half past seven we went to the Chapel. I procured a new good seat near the platform. Then every-thing went on as in the programme. The address was grand, noble, and so was Mr Curtiss. I think that he is a "man" with a strong mind and soul. I wish all men were like him in his …. After Chapel services Nannie, Emma and I went to dining room, there we managed to get a few mouthfuls

 

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and there slip out. Emma and I promenaded until the bell struck 11 1/2 then went in haste to our rooms. Good little girls!
May 25, 1870.
This morning our subject in Bible Class was "Self Denial." I am going to try this week to acquire that virtue. May God help me. Nellie and Duckie are both angry with me. I am going to speak to them both to-night if I can summon up courage enough.
May 16, 1870. Monday
I had quite a scene last night - but was very, very glad to find that my suspicions in regard to Nellie were entirely ungrounded. I believe her wholly. I am certain that she feels very badly, and I fear does not love me as much as formerly - but I hope that all is right now. Will wonders never cease? Yesterday on hearing that Mamie was sick, I sent her my love and word that I was sorry. Those little words did a great deal for me, for this morning she called me to her and thanked me for them. I asked her to come to my room, as

 

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I had some-thing for her. She came and gave her a little bouquet I had gathered for her yesterday, but which I had had no chance of sending to her. She was pleased, and I think that the little flowers will tell her all that is necessary to reconcile us to each other again. I am very glad for I really love her ever so much. I am so glad that we are friends once more.
May 23, 1870. Monday
This week I am going to try and keep my silent times. I truly want to be better, but it is hard.
May 29, 1870.
Last night we had our last Freshman Sociable this year. The exercise opened by a very comical representations of an organ. Then the History of our "to be illustrious" class was read. After that Blanche Wilder, our procter, recited a beautiful poem on "Witchery". Then we were carried far into the sealed future and saw our fates before us. Mine is marriage, alas! Then we sat around the room, eating oranges. 'Twas ease, if not elegance. Altogether

 

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the evening passed delightfully. I hope that the next three weeks will pass very quickly, as I am longing for the rest and quiet at home.
Tuesday, July 19th, 1870.
At last after all my longing I am home. My examinations passed with success in all but Geometry in which I was so frightened that I did not do justice to myself. On Saturday the 18th of June I said Blanche Wilder studied the fourth book of Geometry as we were both sick when the class had it. Monday also we employed likewise, and on Tuesday morning we were examined and both got along nicely. Monday we had a concert, but when 'twas half over I came out. Tuesday morning while dressing for gymnastics, Emma Kasson came in, how glad I was to see her! For the afternoon we went to the Class Day exercises, they were splendid. after they were over Emma left. There was an address the the [sic] Philalethean Society in the evening which I did not attend. Wednesday Emma came out again and at nearly ten I went with my class to the Chapel. It was a wise dress trimmed with flutings and black velvet. It was lovely. Belle Hall

 

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graduated. After all was over I went but with the others and finally discovered my Uncle John in the crowd. I was ever so glad to see him. He soon left then. Emma and I wandered around the rest of the day. That evening I made up with Lizzie Houghton. How silly school-girls are to quarrel! My pictures came in the afternoon, and I gave all but four away there. Thursday morning Em and I spent our time in various ways, and at two o'clock we started for home. After a tiresome ride in the cars for five and half hours Hastings was reached. Emma received a warm welcome from Mother and the children, and Grandma. Saturday Em and Julie came home from New Brunswick. For two weeks Emma made this her home. I wonder what she truely thought. I love her dearly. Uncle John wrote me something very funny not long ago. He said that he showed my pictures to a gentleman who on seeing it exclaimed, "Why, that is Billy's girl", "Billy who?" asked Jude. "Why, Billy Bowen who is dead in love with her." "Then you know the lady do you?" said Uncle - "Certainly, it is Miss Lilla Thomas"

 

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I have since found that B.B. lives in Hastings. I'm sure I don't know him. Strange that he fell in line with me. I now expect to go to [Shandaken] the 1st August with Uncle John and Alma. If there are no rooms there I cannot not go. In that case, I shall go with Gus. Thomas to Trenton. It has been awfully dull here since my arrival - hope 'twill improve. Wonder where I'll be when I write in here again.
Our Valley Home
Tuesday, August 2nd, 1870. "Valley of Shandaken"
On Saturday last, I left Hastings for New York. I found Julie waiting for me at the depot and then we went shopping for a while, after which we went to 230 East 32nd St. Auntie and Alma welcomed me very kindly, and made the day pass very pleasantly. About half past five Uncle John came home. I was delighted to see him, for I love him very dearly. Sunday morning Alma and I went to Madison Ave. Church where we heard Mr. Elder and some beautiful music which thrilled me through and through. The afternoon was spent mostly with Uncle John, he teazed [sic]

 

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almost all of the time about "Billy [Benen]" and Mr. Everit, a gentleman who was to accompany us on our trip. In the evening Alma and I retired very early and soon were folded in the arms of Morpheus. But in the night I awoke and puzzled my brains about "Billy [Benen]" finally I made up my mind who it was and resolved to ask Uncle the next day. Monday morning we were up bright and early and at quarter past seven we left in a carriage for the depot. After putting us in a drawing room car, Uncle looked around for Mr. Everit, at the last moment he appeared. My first impression was that he was decidedly tall and not at all handsome. After a very pleasant ride of three hours we reached Rhinebeck where we took the Ferry for [Rondant], which we reached at 11.30. There we had our lunch, which we ate in the primative style. After waiting an hour we took the train to [Phienicia]. When we arrived there we found New O'Neil, the proprietor who drove us through grand mountain scenery to a pretty while cottage. The hostess and several boarders welcomed us at the door. After washing we went in to a plain, country, supper, after which we played croquet, then

 

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had singing, and then went to our rooms some distances from the house in which we board. Alma and I room directly opposite the gentlemen. A bright red carpet covers the floor, neat papering on the wall, and green shades hang from the windows. Two or three chairs, an old fashioned bed, on which is spread a gay quilt, a small table wash-stand, completes the furniture. Alma and I laughed until we cried almost Monday night, first, she spilt the shoe polish, then [lose] her pill and every-thing I said was laughed at. We did not get to sleep until eleven o'clock I guess. Fair.
Wednesday, August 3rd, 1870.
Yesterday morning we were up with the larks and when dressed walked to the other house for breakfast, which was at seven. That ordeal over, Alma and I went home and arranged our room neatly then wrote to Mother and played croquet and then we … went for a … over the hills. I gathered some mosses, and the rest picked black-berries. We came down just in time for dinner. After that was oer we went home, and the gentlemen came in our room, and the afternoon was spent quite agreeably

 

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in reading, talking, etc. At four we sent the gentle man out as we wished to dress. I wore white … and lavender Alma her white pique and [blue]. Then we walked to supper, and afterwards had croquet. Alma and Mr. Hatfield, an old … thought I cheated once, and I did not know I had done [many] until some time afterwards. It married me all night long and this morning I made an apology to Mr. Hatfield. After croquet we went next door, and had a sing, then to bed. Tuesday Fair.
This morning we took our usual walk to breakfast, and then came immediately here and wrote letters, I wrote a note to Aunt [Emmie]. While writing the old stage went by, what a concern it is!
I like Mr. Everit much better than at first, he improves our acquaintance. He is very tall, fair complexion, beautiful blue eyes, light brown hair, light mustache and side wiskers, and what is best all, very gentlemanly. I think he likes Alma and me pretty well. (I have found out who B.B. is.) W.B.F.

 

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What a goose I am! Uncle John and Mr. Everit think that I was angry because they teazed me about my journal. I wasn't at all. But I was very much afraid that Mr. E. would see it, because I had written something in it about him. I did not really think that either of them would intentionally look in it, but feared that they might catch a glimpse. Uncle threw it out of the corridor to Mr. E. and he ran around the house. I ran after him, and chased him back again up stairs. Presently after they had teazed me as much as they liked, they gave me my journal. Then Uncle John shook hands and kissed me for fun and asked me to forgive him. Of course I assented. Then Mr. Everit asked me and I said "yes", but would not shake hands with him, simply because a fit of obstinancy came upon me. I know that he thinks I am very silly, but I don't care. I was not going to have him think that he had made me give up my way. But I will shake hands with him the next time I see him I guess. I'll take back the pencil scratch on the opposite page, as I think that he is gentlemanly, very. Alma has gone to the [Havilands], so I guess I'll dress, "as I've nothing else to do." "Funny and freely?" "Yes, [ma'am]."

 

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Thursday Morning, August 4, 1870.
Yesterday afternoon while Alma was out, I dressed and then wrote. About half past four we walked to the other house, and had three games of croquet, after which we went in to supper. Then we sat on the piazza and talked until the children came for us to go to the barn where they were going to have a romp. We went and staid to have a romp. We went and staid there until nine o'clock, partaking in all the games. Then after a short sing in the house, we came home, and sat in our room until ten when the good nights were said and we each went to rest. This morning we had intended taking a long ride, but the rain interfered with our plans. I felt really sick this morning, but am much better now. Wrote a long letter to Mamma, then read some magazines. In the afternoon Alma and I took a snooze, and Mr. Everit and Uncle John went to Phoenicia. When walking over to tea, we met Mr. E. who said that Uncle John had received a telegram which made it necessary that he should go to New York that evening on business. Alma had a good cry. In the evening we went to the [Havilands], and played author and

 

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sang.
Saturday Afternoon.
Yesterday morning we went to the Havilands, and found them out under the pines. We played Authors and then went to Mr. O'Neil's. In the afternoon we went on a pleasant ride to Pine Hill about nine miles from here - stopped at the Shandaken P.[C]. and there found a letter for me from Emmie. Mr. Everit almost fainted on the way, and alarmed Alma and me very much. In the evening we staid at Mr. O'Neil's until nine o'clock talking I found out that Mr. E. is twenty-six. At ten we retired for the night.
Sunday.
Yesterday I was sick all day long. In the afternoon Uncle John came home, I was ever so glad to see him again. I went to Mr. O'Neil's and had a cup of tea in the sitting room. Went home about eight and then Uncle John became vexed at Alma because she had disobeyed him. I tried to soothe it over between them and finally succeeded. Went to bed early.
Tuesday 9, 1870.
Sunday morning we breakfasted a little later than usual, and then I read a little while with Mr. Everit. Afterwards I wrote until dinner, then after that meal I wrote and talked until four then dressed in my white swiss and lavender

 

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ribbons. After supper we came home early and talked until two. Fine.
Monday morning two carriage loads one containing Mrs. Baldwin, Miss Emma Hatfield, Miss Mary Haviland and Mr. O'Neil. the other containing Uncle, Alma, Mr. Everit, I, and Willie O'Neil, as driver, left here for a day among the mountains. We drove three miles, and then were obliged to wait some time at a country store. While waiting Alma and I were weighed, and during the operation a man came along with a team and said, "I'll take the heaviest pulled Uncle persisted in declaring that I was the one and the man saying he would call for me on his return drove on. I created a great deal of fun by trying a small stone on my … age went finger with this piece of string. I wore the string all day. Mr. Everit kindly tied it with a lover's knot in order to have the effect still better and Finally we started off over hill and dale through some of the grandest scenery I ever saw. After riding some miles we reached a place where a clear, cool spring gave us refreshing drink and a shady nook just above the spring on the side of the mountain invited us to partake of its quiet.

 

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We all nestled cosily together, and then the basket, the most important thing at picnics was brought before our admiring gaze and open mouths. Biscuits, mutton sandwiches, apples raw, and apples baked, cake and some clear sparkling water appeased our appetites and we all felt muchly refreshed. Then we again started on our ride. In a short time we reached the village of West Kill. We stopped at the hotel and created quite a sensation in our picnic dresses. Soon we discovered a large ball-room where we had many a merry game of tag. Finally the heat oppressive, we started out to find some shady spot under the trees where we could spend a little while with the "Authors" A short walk brought us to a little white church. Between the chrch and grave-yard we sat down and played. 'Twas the only thing that marred my pleasure during the day, for sitting there, I could see the graves, and the whole scene and even the game reminded me so much of him who now is sleeping under the daisies that it was with difficulty that I could keep back my tears. I was sad for an hour or two

 

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Rec. Nov. 7. 1869. Sunday cleanse
Vassar. Sunday …
Dear Lillie,
I asked you last night, What made … [on] so good? Now, my dear, tell me the answer please. [You] dont seem to have to try very hard and yet you always do right. Can you believe it? I try to do right I meet with poor success and get discouraged but then I ask help and try again Last night I was wondering if what you wanted to tell me in the note for the Christmas vacation was that 3 5 5 Lille I 'm afraid you will laugh at this stuff and note how a decidedly stupid child Lillie I hope you won't say any thing to Lizzie abt. this (?). I am

 

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going to stop right here for I never know when to stop when I get a talking of myself in connection with this subject if you don't like what I've said just forget it. and in future I will try and be as gay as possible all the time. … off. Marnie Remember your promise to destroy this.

 

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August. 1870.
Shandaken.
Ulster [leo].
New York.

 

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afterwards, so much so that Mr. Everit perceived it and inquired the cause, the only answer I could give him was that I was "blue." After the game was over I with the others went to a little red school, house opposite, where some little country lasses and laddies were learning their A-B-C's, etc. The desks were of an ancient kind, as in fact was the whole house. One little Sarah fell desperately in love with Mr. Everit, and a certain George seemed very conscious of my numerous charms for he was reproved many times for inattention. The school ma'am was a lady of twenty-six or seven, rather pretty and very polite. While hearing two young damsels reading in silvery tones, the carriage was announced and we left, probably much to the sorrow of all, especially Sarah and George. We came home the same road. stopping here and there for water or berries and at five our ride was finished for we were home. After dressing we walked to supper after which we played croquet for a while and then came home. After our usual pleasant chat in "the ladies' room" we retired. Fine.

 

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This morning we rose, all feeling rather sleepy. Breakfast over we played five games of croquet of which Mr. E. and I beat three. Then came to the house and wrote ever since. At one we went to dinner after which we played four games of croquet Mr. Everit and I beat three. Then came home and Uncle read aloud until suppertime. After supper we went to the croquet ground, but as it looked like rain, we did not remain, but came directly home. The evening was spent in our room in the twilight. The thunderstorm came on and every now and then the lightening would burst in our room and I truly don't know what to think of Mr. Everit, some-times I like him, and sometimes I don't. He has called me "Lill" twice, and then apologized. Funny is all I can say.
Wednesday August 10, 1870.
This morning after breakfast we had a long talk about tableaux. We are to have them Saturday evening and I am to appear as Cinderella in two secenes, Mr. E. as prince. Then appear thrice as "Faith at the cross". I finally talked my head sick and came home and where we found Uncle John writing. Mr. Everit is reading and I am trying to kill time and [heat] by scribbling my journal. Mr. Everit is real naughty, teazing me all the time. I keep scolding him, but it does not good. Dear me! I've nothing to do till dinner

 

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Friday Morning.
After dinner on Wednesday I played croquet. We had a very exciting discussion there which ended in making us all very sober. Then Alma and I went in our room and read until four when we bathed and dressed. The evening we spent in the barn, where we were entertained by a Magie [Lantern]. When the usual chat in our room followed and we retired for the night.
Yesterday we went to breakfast through rain and after breakfast we sat on the piazza till Eleven when Uncle and I cam home. I read and Uncle wrote. After dinner Alma and I came home and undressed, lounged around in our room for an hour or so when we dressed. I wore my white linen dress, black silk overskirt swiss bow and black ribbons, hair braided, was told by the gents that I looked pretty. Flattery! Then as it began raining Alma and I went to the house and sent an umbrella and I wrote the note to Mr.E. for fun "Mr. Everit, Miss Alma and your humble servant send you an umbrella untended to protect your tender head from the rain, and our "[studying]." Yours etc., [Lilla] Thomas Uncle said he kissed it, how absurd! I asked … for it in the evening and when I had it, threatened to [tear] it, made him a

 

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little provoked at me. Finally gave it to him torn just a little. We all practised gymnastics and then had a sing. Came home and talked a while in our room. Rather unpleasant.
This morning we had quite an exciting time at the house after breakfast. An organ grinder came along and gave us sweet music (!) for fifty cents. I had a good dance with Alma and Mrs Baldwin, … made me feel as gay as a lark. Then I went in the barn and gave some directions about the cross for Faith. Afterwards the gents brought us some candy in which we found some …. Mr. E. and I had quite a flirtation with the verses I found one very apropos and gave it to him. "You have my esteem, if … that you can live And frankly dear sir, tis all I can give." Then we came to the house where I wrote a letter to Mother and then wrote in this. 'Tis almost time for dinner. Saturday - After dinner yesterday we played croquet and then I carried the cross home where I covered it with white muslin. Dressed for supper and there played croquet, after which we had a short rehearsal in the barn and then a sing, then Alma and I came home and braided each other's hair. Went to bed about half past eleven.

 

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Thy beauty won my heart,
By its unstudied grace;
There is no show of art
On thy sweet radiant face.

 

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We were up very early this morning and over at the house long before breakfast. After breakfast I trimmed my cross with evergreens and flowers. It looked beautiful, but the two gents almost spoiled it by teazing me. Then Lizzie H and I had a chat under the arbor. After that I sat on the stoop with Uncle John and Mr. Everit. Played croquet till dinner. After dinner went to the …, where the camp meetings are held. Then we returned to the house where we talked until now, when Alma and I were obliged to send Mr. E. out of our room as we wanted to dress.
Then I dressed in my Cinderella dress, before dressing for supper. Took down my hair and then went for supper, after which I made a very pretty wreath of myrtle and white and red flowers. Then gathered my things together and took them to the barn. The first scene I could not see as I had to dress for Cinderella. The second tableaux I was standing by a table which was covered with kitchen utensils, holding a cup and spoon in my hands. I tried to look very pensive, but fear I did not succeed. My sisters dressed for the ball were standing opposite me. I had on a dark calico dress, with a plain white collar my hair bound in a net. After the first part I hastened to dress for the second

 

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past. My drss was exchanged for one of lilac, over which was thrown an over skirt of white lace. I wore a white waist a lilac belt, a sash from one side across to the opposite shoulder where it was tied in a simple …. My hair fell in waves over my neck, and a pretty wreath rested on my head. I sat in the middle of the stage, one shoe lying at my side, and one foot shoeless held … my prince, who was trying on the glass slipper. Mr. Everit looked very handsome a black velvet cap, trimmed with red and gold, was gauntly set on one side of his head. He knelt at my side on his knee and I was looking at him quite anxiously. I held a white fan and a pretty bouquet in my hands. My sisters were looking at me very anxiously and indignantly. The whole scene was splendid. They clapped us out again. We changed it a little. This time the slipper was on my foot and the prince stood at my side looking down upon me in a very loving way. I reciprocated the glance, my head a little on one side. The prettiest compliment I received upon Cinderella was from little Ida Baldwin. She passed by me as I was going into the audience and said, "I don't think that Cinderella could have looked any prettier than you did, Miss Lillie."

 

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I went among the audience in my Cinderella dress and received quite a number of compliments. There were quite a number of tableaux before Faith. When 'twas time for that I went into the dressing room, and threw a couple of white sheets around me, leaving my right arm bare. My hair hung around my shoulders loosely, and I wore no ornament whatever. The rose of white, wreathed with flowers, stood at the right of the stage. the background was of black and the lights were quite dim. The first scene was represented by me standing before the cross my hands clasped (down) and head drooping. In the second scene I knelt, my hands clasped looking upwards. In the third scene I stood up clinging to the cross. Before and between the scenes Lizzie played and sang "Rock of Ages". And when the last scene took place the words "Simply to thy cross I cling" were sung and indeed the whole tableau was very impressive. They said it was the best of all. After 'twas over, I went into the dressing room and had not been there a minute before Mr. Everit came in to congratulate me upon my success. He said that it could not have been done better. One more tableau was shone and then we left, as it rained our walk was rather unpleasant, but nevertheless we reached home safely. Alma and I wait directly to bed as we were veyr tired. Altogether we had a very pleasant evening. They were obliged to postpone some of the tableaux as it was getting too late for any more

 

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Programme of Tableaux.
1. May Pole, All of the children - very pretty - Two scenes.
2. Cinderella - Lilla T. Sisters - Alma and Co. Prince, Mr. Everit " "
3. Village Doctor - Willie Baldwin - Delia. Good - One scene.
4. The Pudding - All the children - Miss Hatfield. Two scenes.
5. The Greek Girl - Tellie - Queen, Mary Haviland " "
6. The Magic Cake - All the children - Mr. Baldwin " "
7. Six month before and after - Alma and Clarence, Ida - Good " "
9. Boston Tea Party - Mrs O'Neil, Misses Hatfield, Haviland, … and E Hatfield, Baldwin " "
10. Cutting the Curls. Clarence and Ida. " "
11. Blind Fiddler. Charles Clarence. children Good " "
12. The Opera Bonnet Alma and Clarence Good " "
13. Faith - Lilla Thomas. Three scenes
14. Sleeping Beauty - Alma and Mr. Everit. Two "
15. Playing School. 16 Children at Play - 17. Old Lang Syne.

 

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Monday evening - Yesterday morning after breakfast we sat on the piazza in Mr O'Neil's house and talked for a long time, then we went to our house where Mr. E and I had a long chat in our room. Then we walked over to dinner after which I sat down and then went to the barn, where Uncle John and Mr Everit were I had a nice long talk in which Mr E. said that if I came here next summer he would. Then I dressed in my white dress and lavender ribbons. After supper we had a real good sing and then we escorted ever so many of the folks to see our rooms - then went with the Haviland's and sang came home and had our usual chat. This morning after breakfast we played a game - such fun! How I laughed! Then we came here where Alma and I packed our trunks, all but a little. dressed in our suits and walked down to the croquet ground where we had several games. Then to dinner we went and afterwards talked on the piazza - then cracked and ate butternuts had more croquet, more supper. After supper I ran around with a stick Clarence gave me getting people to write their names upon it. Then Miss Emma and I came home fixed something for Mr. E

 

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Wednesday evening -
I was too tired on Monday night to finish writing, so I will commence when I left off. About a week ago Mr. Everit expressed a wish to have a lock of my hair. I of course refused to gratify him. But I resolved to have a good joke so the next morning I went into the barn and asked one of the boys to get a horse hair for me. He gave me one about the colour of my hair which I put away in a good place until future use.
Monday I conjured up the following, -
You said that you wanted a lock of hair,
So this I … with the hope that with care
You'll tenderly guard it but please do not dare
To show or to lose it for then. O beware!
So Monday evening Emma Hatfield and I went to our sleeping room and I copied the above neatly on a piece of paper and tied it with blue ribbon. I made it fit in a little box I had about an inch square. Then I put in the hair tied … ton sides by blue ribbon as it was very …. The box was covered up and their wrapped in a piece of white paper, that also was tied by blue ribbon. Then I put fourteen wrappings around it, the two last of which were white. Mr. E's direction was on the outside. Then we went back to the house and … in the parlor. Finally I turned to Emma Hatfiled and said, "Lets make a

 

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Dutch bed." "Exactly what I was thinking of" So we went off with Clarence as a beau. When we reached the house, we resolved to let Clarence make the bed. He did and then one sheet under the bed. Then we returned to the house and found them ready to stash. As Alma was quite sick, they left her at the house and we went home alone. I was obliged to sit up until late, but did not hear any thing from the gents room. In the morning we were up light and early and took our last walk to Mr. O'Neil's, where we had our breakfast. Afterwards we found a carriage waiting to take us down to the depot. We left the place with many regrets, as we had been so happy there. We were weighed at Phoenicia and each of us had gained four pounds, I weighing 103.
We were in plenty of time for the car, and after we had gotten in who should pop in, but Charlie and Clarence I sent a message to Emma Hatfield. Then Mr. Everit and Alma seated themselves opposite me and Uncle and soon we were off. But the train went so slow that we lost the Jerry boat and had to wait sometime. When it did come it was too late for the train at Rhinebeck. We had to wait in the depot at " for four hours. Most of the time Alma and I slept and then we took the train for Poughkeepsie we had a good supper and at 6.05 we started for New York.

 

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Mr. Everit and I sat together and had quite a pleasant chat Poor Alma was real sick on the train - but as we took a carriage at the depot, she reached home with out much trouble. I gave Mr. Everit the package at the carriage door and with a "God bless you," he left us. He told me that he thought that I was a very agreeable, very sensible, and very scrupulous young lady". I know that he likes me but I would like to know just how much. I think that he is very pleasing indeed and like him very much. Uncle says that we have changed hearts but he has [not] mine and I do not think that I have his. We reached Aunties's at half past ten. She was very glad to see us. Julie and I lay awake until after two, talking. This morning I was late for breakfast but humbly made an apology which was accepted. I went down town with Julie, made an appointment with Dr Clarke and then had some pictures taken. Came home and wrote to Emma Hatfield. Then dined. After dinner I went to sleep for an hour or so, then at three I left Auntie's for the depot. Julie went with me, Reached home safely. Found Mr. Martin at home. Saw Emma Codey in the evening and wrote in this. Altogether I have had a lovely visit away this summer. How good bye, Shandaken, till I come again.

 

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August 28, 1870.
Mother, Grandma, Julie and the children have just gone to church. I am at home, where a bad head-ache keeps me. Very little has happened since my return. Every-thing has gone on as usual. Last week Fred Thomas was here quite a while. I believe that the boy is dead in love with me. Everyone speaks of it. And I - well - I won't express my opinion, 'tis nothing very favorable. In the afternoon [I] What a long, long day this has been! I suppopse because I did not go to church. Next Saturday Uncle John and Mr. Everit are coming up in the [4-15] from New York. How glad I shall be to see them especially Uncle John. Bless his dear heart. New I must go down stairs and see about supper.
September 6, 1870. Tuesday.
On Wednesday the 24th of August I went to Dr. Clarke according to my appointment, I spend three hours with him on Wednesday and four on Thursday. Took Fannie with me and staid all night at Carrie [Bunault]. On the next Tuesday I went out shopping in New York with Mamma, met George L B in the [car] (the first time this summer). On Thursday I was invited to take tea and spend the evening at Anna Mallisou's in company with Mr.

 

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Post's old school. I went about half past five, wore my black and white striped silk white swiss overskirt trimmed with black velvet. I had a very pleasant evening. Saturday morning before I was wholly dressed the door bell rang and George L B. was announced and asked for me. Phew! how I flew around. He wanted to take me out rowing. I did not want to go but Mother wanted me to. so I had to take down my curls and put up my braids the best way I could, and go down. At first I excused myself on the ground of having too much to do as I expected company, but Mother urged it and said that she would do every-thing so at last I consented. We walked down the short way and about nine o'clock were on the water. We floated about for four hours, chatting in a dreamy sort of a way. it was so quiet that it made us both a little dreamy. About one o'clock we came home I with a bad head-ache and a very red face. found Amanda Burault and her niece here. They left in the afternoon. I lay down a little while and then dressed [wore] my white [nausook] and lavender ribbons. But the effect of flowers, curls etc could not and would not hide my blushes, caused by the sun looking at me so much. Well, at five or a little after, the carriage containing Julie (who had gone to N.Y the day before) Mr. Everit and Uncle John drove in our place. Mother, the children and I were on the